In Mourning

I'm so sad. Last night I discovered that they have DRAINED our local mill pond. I learned to fish there. I would ice skate there in the winter. I fell in when I was really little and dad pulled me out with the rope they had attached to me. There was a major foreign weed problem I guess. Our family has history with developing lakes so dad had offered someone on the board some advice. You can introduce grass carp. They will eat the weeds and they won't reproduce. So you don't have to worry about them overtaking the current fish population. The Fish :-( Where are they??? I still don't know this. Did they find their way down the creek to the Clintonville pond??? I hope so. There were some really nice bass and pike in the Marion Pond. I drove out to the former boat landing last night with a friend. There is a stream running through the channel. Otherwise it looks like a waste land after a nuclear war. I guess they found a ton of stuff when they drained it. Including a boat. But alot of bikes and skateboards.... especially by the dam. I think if I lived on the pond I would lobby to have my property taxes reduced. I don't consider that living on the waterfront anymore. How will they restore this fish population??? No monster pike for way to long now. Though we should go out there with a camera and take a picture of the structure and mark points on the GPS. Then if there ever were fish again we could cheat when we are trying to find them.

So yes... who would have ever though draining the local pond would be such a bummer.

Hmmmmmmmm

So I was up at camp this last weekend for the Women's Retreat. Between that, talking to my friends, my own contemplative thoughts and a POW moment from God. My head is just spinning. He has a mighty huge plan for me is how it looks. It's kind of freaky. Yet He is in control and I can see how this has all been set up, up to this point. So please pray for guidance. I have been praying since Sunday night so I know if that was really God that told me these things. Or if it was just my mind playing with me. Though every other time it has hit me like that... it has been God. So dear Lord please continue to prepare me for the work that you will have me do. I don't feel worthy. Please mold me in to the tool that You need. So many things to ponder........ (the journal is growing rapidly now)

Gosh.... freakin' idiot

Ok.... sorry N.D. had to steal that one from ya. But seriously. I can be alittle slow sometimes. So I'm out working on my fence. It has started to sag over the last 5 years and some of the insulators needed to be replaced. I was out there for 3 hours tonight. Well, idiot me didn't wear gloves. After I pinched the skin above my thumb you'd think I would have rectified that problem. That would have been to easy. How about after the skinned knuckle?? NOPE. Not even after the blood blister on my index finger. The really brilliant part is I pinched the blood blister a second time making it even larger. Man, that's sore. I share go sulk off to my room now. Did Jesus ever pound his thumb with a hammer when he was helping Joseph (the carpenter)??

So it's been awhile...

... since I had a blog entry.

I have an update on the missions trip. I went down to Madison on Thursday with Sondra. We met with the missionary to learn more. Interesting.. last time Sondra was over in that country she helped at the sewing center. I had been wondering why God was calling me over there when sewing is not something that I'm good at. So we were informed that the area where we are most needed is working with kids/teens/young adults in the slum schools. This is exciting since youth group is the area of ministry in which I serve now.

I was just listening to Casting Crowns. This song really hit me today...

Empty handsheld high
Suchsmall sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You

Lord, I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to you

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You

Is your Lifesong singing to Him??? Not that you are being called to go halfway around the world to share the gospel. What about in your family, school and job??? How are your actions glorifying God??? Are you more concerned about your pride and feelings or furthering the kingdom?? If God smacks you with His 2x4 are you going to listen 100%?? If you surrendered to Christ then your life is not your own. All He is looking for is someone willing. When a spiritual influence in my life brings something to my attention I examine it to see how I can be more Christ-like. Even deep rooted habitual things I had never previously considered. Now you aren't going to be asked to change who you are, that is the way God created you. Everyone has their own personality and strengths for a reason. But how can you become more of the person that you were created to be??

Are you satisfied with status quo or are you willing to let the Father stretch you??

Are you reading your BibleEVERYDAY???!!!Try it once... you might be suprised with the results :-)

Camp

I love working at camp. Hmmmmm.... seems to me that I said that before. This weekend was a great get away. Hard work and great friends with Godly conversation. Satuday and Sunday I helped with the horses all day. Then Monday morning I helped in the kitchen bright and early. Then from noon on I helped my friend clean cabins. There was one lady that saw me Monday afternoon. She had seen me previously in both the stables and the kitchen. She asked if there was anything that I DIDN'T do...lol. Saturday night and Sunday night we were able to take the pontoon out. That was fun. Amazingly enough they trust me to drive it

I also took my bicycle up there with me. Every morning I would go out for a 30min/1Hr bike ride before I had to report for duty. I was even sleeping in later than normal...lol.

You also can't help but connect with God up there. He presented an amazing opportunity on Saturday night. Now I have even more to think about in life. I also deepened an already close friendship. Close isn't even a good word for it anymore. I love my friend and would do anything for her.

I always come home completely tired.... but it's the BEST kind of tired for some reason.