Sticking with you

So I have written a ton of what has been on my mind for some time now. I have an entire folder on my computer. Life has been interesting that is for sure. I was talking to my friend at work today telling her that it felt like I was in boot camp for marriage. I know what sticking to a commitment means more than most of my peers. I know what continuing forward no matter what means. I know what lowering my head and continuing on through the pain and tears means. I have deleted some of my previous notes that I posted even though they were general. I don't need people trying to figure things out. Even people that do know what is going on don't seem to be able to figure me out. I can't even figure me out sometimes. I just know that God is my guide. Last night as I was driving thinking and praying about these things in life a song came on the radio that says it all. I am living this. I wouldn't want to turn back time to avoid this. Right now I just pray for the continual patience to wait for the Lord's timing. He knows what the end looks like. That's what keeps me going as I continue through the beating. Love. It's the greatest commandment. I pray you all experience what true love looks like and feels like. It's unconditional. It's never ending. It is patient. It endures all things. It's amazing. You can't explain it until you live it.

Addison Road
"Sticking with you"

Come on, it's me you're talking to
There's something going on inside of you
Don't have to say it, but I wish you would
Cause it would be much easier

You always hide behind yourself
You walk a lonely road with no one's help
I hate to break the news
You're headed for a fall

And if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with you
(I'm stinking with you)

Even if you try and shut me out
I'm staying here cause that's what love's about
I might let you down, but I won't let you go

So lean into me, I want to know
Everything about the fear you hold inside
Cause you and I are better than just one,

So if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with

If that's what it means to love you
If that's what it means to have your back
If that's what it takes to show you
Then I'm in, I'm in

If I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around

And if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
Cuz I'm sticking with you.
(I'm sticking with you)